Repeatedly telling myself that I should have controlled my emotions. It's the consciousness that rules my body not the stupid feelings.
Focusing my mind to boost the consciousness against my emotions. An internal war began. Reasonableness and logic were fighting with the uncontrollable emotions.
Trying hard to analyse the situation based on the facts taken. Working hard to gather information to prove to myself that it's nothing, it's something within my expectation, everything seemed to be logic and reasonable.
But every time, in the middle of the process, the intrusion happened. The unknown,twisting and dark smog penetrated to the solid, informational environment, just like how it used to break my calmness during my 'have to be very focus and serious time'.
Therefore, the war was very tough, no one seemed to stand a chance to win. Emotions roared, logic killed but no one was going to give up. Ok, I am consciously lying, emotions seemed to stand a better chance on wining it but I deeply believed that it is just a matter of time to declare that the champion belongs to the consciousness. This is because time is pretty powerful, powerful enough to wash away any emotion, in the context of long-term.
Back to myself, took it as a challenge, the sooner I could overcome my emotions, the greater I've actually grown.
看了两部期待很久的电影，一部是很多年前的经典，叫做Forrest Gump (中：阿甘正传），另一部是最近错过的一部电影，叫The Social Network (中：社交网络)。Forrest Gump是一部节奏很慢的电影，用一个很特别的叙述手法来讲述一个人的人生，一个跑得很快的人的人生。整个故事虽然带出了淡淡的无奈、淡淡的遗憾、淡淡的感动，却给我留下了很深很深的感触。而The Social Network呢，是一部很紧凑，主角讲话非常快的一部电影，是一个戏剧化了的传记，一个风靡全世界的社交网站，Facebook创办者的传记。